Remember Columbia House? You know, the super trendy mail in program where you got like 20 Cassette Tapes and CDs for a penny? I remember being super stoked when my parents let me (because I hassled them to no end) sign up and pick out the albums I wanted. My musical role model was my older sister Allison. She was 4 years older than me and super cool. She was rebellious, kept my parents constantly on their toes, and most importantly, she knew good music. I don’t remember all of the titles I chose, but the ones that are embedded in my mind are all three Nirvana albums- Bleach, Nevermind and In Utero. I played them over and over and over again. I became secretly obsessed. Mind you, I was eleven. My parents were very lenient about the music we listened to. I think it was a way for them to rebel against their own very strict Catholic parents.
I had, and still have, a strange fascination with Kurt Cobain. I think it was a combination of his hair, voice, Chuck Taylors, and the opening guitar riffs of most of their songs. At such a young age, it was more about the different sounding tones of their songs and hopes that one day I could be as cool as my sister. I remember writing down words that I didn’t understand in their songs so I could look them up later in the set of dictionaries and encyclopedias we had in our attic.
My sister and I watched MTV’s Nirvana Unplugged over and over after he committed suicide. It wasn’t until my later teens and early twenties that I understood why he killed himself. The world is fucked up, he was deeply affected by it, so the only way out, for him, was a gun. Cobain spoke the truth. He verbalized what most people thought, but fear saying. Because of that quality he was classed as being a deeply disturbed individual.
I still listen to my Nirvana albums which have been upgraded from cassette tapes to digital. They serve as a constant reminder for me to be real in all aspects of my life. ‘Come As You Are’ sneaks into my mind during stressful situations and often pops up as a pseudo mantra when I’m trying to attempt a difficult pose or a long hold in my ashtanga practice.
We all have a secret Kurt Cobain inside of us. Part rebel, part artist, part truth-seeker, all PUNK. Most of us are afraid of it- I still am most of the time, but at least I’m aware it’s there.
We need to keep the spirit of ‘punk’ alive- for our generation, and for future generations. My very talented friend, Joy Marzec, is directing an independent film to do exactly that.
“..My lead character, Daimon, is a natural optimist and believer in God. He struggles to reconcile wanting to believe in something with his love of the punks‘ desire to reject everything that is lame, hollow and fake. Funny, but he goes to the one place where you’d think spirituality wouldn’t exist to find that very path…the PUNK world.” – Joy Marzec
Joy Marzec is a filmmaker and has also practiced Ashtanga yoga for the past 13 years. In addition to her beautiful asana practice, Joy is known in the yoga world as the producer of the acclaimed online Asana Kitchen yoga instructional video series. With the Asana Kitchen she has made watching a yoga instruction more fun and dynamic while pioneering new creative ways of conveying important techniques of yoga. The Asana Kitchen is viewed religiously by a highly appreciative world wide audience. Joy brings the same fresh perspective and originality to her film making. She is a highly talented and skilled artist who embodies the contemporary spirit of DIY, Do It Yourself. She has been involved in the creative side of storytelling since early childhood. She has worked professionally in the theater for the past ten years as a writer and director. Making the switch to film five years ago she has largely taught her self every facet of the technical side of film making from writing, story boarding, directing, camera work and editing. Her last short film, The Medicine Wheel, was featured in film festivals around the country. Through her films she aims to entertain and also explore the deepest themes of the human soul. When you go to a Joy Marzec film you can expect to find unlikely, original characters who are somehow searching within their souls for personal answers to life’s most important questions.
Joy needs your help to make The Bhakti Boy a reality. Please consider funding the film during this pre-production phase by donating any dollar amount to help cover the costs of the cast, crew, rentals, locations, and transportation. You can donate by clicking here.
There are also two events being held over the next few weeks at local Philadelphia yoga studios. The events include an ashtanga yoga demonstration and a gallery of local Philadelphia artists. There will be fundraising for the film at both events. Learn more by clicking here.